I regret not keeping silent.
I regret the mistakes I've made, the friends that I've pushed away, and the things I haven't done.
I regret not saying Goodbye or Hello.
I regret looking for something that wasn't there.
I regret a lot of things....
But, the one thing I have regretted the most is the way I've treated God. I've only read my Bible just to get through it. I've prayed habitually just to get over with it. I've even just sang the worship songs mindlessly just to say that I did it.
Don't worry, that was before Lent started and maybe a couple of weeks into the season.
BUT, that doesn't excuse my attitude, behavior, or mindset.
I gave up secular music during the time of Lent. Yes, it was a struggle at the beginning and it still is a struggle but, I have grown in my relationship with the LORD through worship of Him. I had become so self-centered that when I worshipped on Sunday morning, I was actually worshipping myself. I didn't even know what I was singing and I could barely push away self to worship Him. My Creator. Healer. King. Savior. The very Man who died for me and bore the punishment for my sins, the wrong things I have committed, I couldn't even sing His praise. It was sad and I knew I needed to change so, this is what I did. Its been hard but, SO worth it! I'm even contemplating not putting it back on my handy dandy little touch.* It's been wonderful!! No, really it has! :)
So, I'll leave you with these verses and a song....
"My lips will shout for joy,
when I sing praises to you;
my soul also, which you have redeemed."
- Psalm 71:23
"Your way, O God, is holy.
What god is great like our God?"
- Psalm 77:13
"There is none like you among the gods, O Lord,
nor are there any works like yours.
All the nations you have made shall come
and worship before you, O Lord,
and shall glorify your name.
For you are great and do wondrous things;
you alone are God.
Teach me your way, O LORD,
that I may walk in your truth;
unite my heart to fear your name.
I give thanks to you, O Lord my God, with my whole heart,
and I will glorify your name forever.
For great is your steadfast love toward me;
you have delivered my soul from the depths of Sheol.
- Psalm 86:8-13
Song: I Don't Regret by Barlow Girl
(*side note: there's this thing called "Turn-Off TV Week" and I'm contemplating that too!)